| sue-ann loves you(: |
[28 Sep 2007|03:03am] |
smiling towards you(:
the direction you're coming towards me-
going for interview ;
wednesday -'26.09.2007'
went for interview at STJAMES ; opposite vivocity.
its a japanese restaurant(:
1oct'2007 starting work liao(=
birthday on 3oct still need work. tmd ; but bobian
dont work bo lui liao, laughs*
hmms , and just hangup fone with yuezhen(=
she told me she's gg to rest for 10mins , with me on e fone ;
putting loudspeak still asked me sing song for her , than she fall aslp liao -.-''
keep blow the fone she also nvr talk , so i hang up liao(:
went to edit my profile haa , now blogging lo ! everyday so lates sleep sia , but cannot sleep
so bobian's ! gee ~
this paragraphy is for yuueeetttiiiinnggg (:
girl , don't think sooo much alrights. i saw ure blog,
hmms . BGR surely have good times and bad times de mah rights?
dont think soo much laa(: nothing de. just treat him good good okay liao(:
haa , alrights? no crys okay. and stay happily(=
sueann is always by ure side when you needs someone *
be strong , you are a strong girl i know gee ~ muaackkss -
good night ! im off to sleep ~~
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[25 Sep 2007|02:16am] |
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hmm, now is 2.19am still not asleep(:
actually wanted to create blogspot de, because i dont know how to use
livejournal -.- but forget it la, since i've already started using it what for i go create another
new one(= before that i jsut called for mac
delivery(: ate mcnuggets; wah , nice ~ ! prettay hungry .
$8.60-.- just for 1 set of meal ; means i can eat 2 times lol. gee ~
boring ' got home 8++ am, aftr that sleep until about 4++ wakeup . than go
northpoint meet aunty and yueting(=
they went to eat first, hungrys*
than went to watson i wanna buy lotion for my tattoo~
feeling like it gonna split =/ brought a small lil baby lotion $3.20
woah, everything needs money. and the prices is always increasing ~
boredom-
aftr that went to aunty huse, cause i don't have cigarette liao. need go tk( :
than aftr that slack at aunty huse till about 9 plus tk 812 go back home(=
aunty was sweets( : she told me, though me and his son cannot b
together, she still dotes me. and asking me to treat her as a friend.
can come her house often(: but one day i will still have to giveup.
its not mine means its not, no matter how i force it. it also won't b mine.
coming back in the lift(:
back is so uncomfortable =/
can we still b the same? like last time? 060206 . .
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| i miss him soo much |
[24 Sep 2007|12:22am] |
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though is just a 1 year 7month relationship,
but i do really misses him so much..
starting we was like STICKING GLUE(:
but since we started working ; the feelings
is not so strong like before. .
but i still wanna go on the relationship(: though he treated me like this.
he will know me, one day i hope. .
because i really loved him so much , that i dont know what myself
is doing . . i just hope tomorrow im gg for interview.
i will b choosen, maybe aftr wrking.
i wont b so stressup. everyday just sleep a few hours. .
looking thru our pictures. .
hais ; i hope he will b back one day . .
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[23 Sep 2007|11:18pm] |
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ytd went to meet yuezhen(: long time nvr sees her already ;
aftr that went to meet yueting(:
pictures with her =)
at 700++ with her ; zhen na and zhen na cousin(:
oh, my fringe is sooooo messy(:
my life is getting upside down -
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yueettiinngg girl(: thanks for ure concern , im alright.
i know what im doing . i will ZI AI(:
i really misses nico ; hais. i dont know what to do.
my life is like UPSIDEDOWN.
wtf ; got nothing to says man. dont know what to do ;
i wants to face the reality. but whenever im alone ;
i'll just think of him. what else can i do?
the sweetness we use to had(: the memories.
hais; i really hope what i've know is just a lie to me, i
dont wish to know. i dont wanna know.
im just fucking stressup ;
hais. relationship FAILED. family? STRESS -
what the fuck more i shud do ? hais .
wanting to blog more - but mummy haven't send my picture =/
today slept until 12++ go home change liao
go partyworld(: with mummy; than go aunty huse sit sit
than now nothing to do. slacking at home~
waiting to decay. . under decaying period of time(: brokenheartswithnothingtosays-
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| misses you - |
[22 Sep 2007|03:27am] |
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now is already 3.31am(: im still blogging =/
ah ting took so long to send me , esp is the video darn long. waited for soooo loonngg
today went to partyworld with ahting(: my cousin .
i woke up about 9.50++ am aftr that i msged her
she said meet 12 at northpoint ocbc . sooo i go nico huse first , to tk cigarette
than come meet her(: so i waited for her at nic's house. she msged me about 1++ like this -.-'''
say she's reaching so she asked me another 15mins more she'll b reaching lol.
so i waited at nic's huse , and took bus 806 there.
she said meet me at the singapore post ; she was senting something to the person
who she brought online the Tiffany&Co necklace all this.
omg , still need a fee of 20 dollars man .
argh ; soo we go 925 eat chicken rice(: aftr that walk to interchange take bus go safra.
when we reached safra, party world is still not open yet =/ sooo we went to there de arcade
walk walk, intend to play some games , but there isn't any nice games(:
so we slack outside taking pictures lol.
aftr that about .. gg 3 we go down see whether its open already mah
but ITS STILL NOT OPEN YET ! soo we sitted outside, waiting . and wait .
until there is WWELCOME words(: 4 hours about 36.05dollars total la
cause we still got order volka ribbena, a lil small cup nia
cost $8 @.@ i like very shua gu like that lol.
bobian no money is like this ~ gonna pock liao .
have to work in order got money to spent(:
my eyes is closing down, but i haven't download pictures to photo bucket.
wanna get the code to put some pictures in my blog (: as well as the video, kinda funny(:
haha , like siao charbo. take videos of ourself singing lol. lol , and is singing
OLD SONG my god. (: oh my, it takes fucking long just to download 8 pictures =/
nvrmind lets talk about my relationship(:
the whole day i've nvr been msging him; misses him(:
felt like peaking on him(: what he's doing , as i cannot show myself.
he will get totally pissed, if im not wrong ..
finally(: tomorrow he is off , haha.
get to have a good rest(: was planning during moon
festival i'll buy lots of candles, and make i <3 you at his corridor, while waiting for him to come back(:
just wish to celebrate moon festival in a btr way(:
missing him much and muchie more ; everyday(:
the feeling is not good, neither can i b right to see him.
always must peak. @.@
my hands are itchy=/ growing bubbles =x ITCHYITCHY* my stomache is hungry =x but impossible
to ask me call macdonald =/ one person eating and cost $8 like 2 person eating @.@
i can eat two times lei =x
twist(:
volka(: ribbena haha.
feeling very down -
thinking of you ;
idiot face ' 1 big eyes
1 small eyes
pig face =x
its me(: slacking time
when the partyworld havent start business(:
this is ahting(: my cousin.
twist(: hee ~
us* (:
alright i should stop here, tomorrow than post the video
tired ~ as well as my computer is tired too(:
goodnights~ missing him-
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lols. just make((: i misses him sooo muucchh
today went to party world with my cousin ' ting.
soooo fun , she recorded me singing 'shang hai tan'
lols. aftr that i help her record also. alot of things ~
the whole day nvr msg him, just msg him . .
asking as a friend he nvr have any off ?
hmms. he said he off tomorrow asking me not to come;
i replied him:' of course i wont come ure huse lah, how long
can i go to ure house to? right. i treat you as ure friend ma so ask
lor, if cannot ask than nvrmind(: '
felt very sad. i didn't want to say all this. .
he always got a determination that , no matter how suffering it is, how pain it is.
he will also let go of me. .
i dont wish to . . i wanna b back with him onces again . .
hoping. . dont let me waste my effort please . .
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| imissesyou. . sooooo mucchhh 死性不改的我 - |
[20 Sep 2007|09:13pm] |
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just got back ard 8++pm(:
from aunty huse, she go 'shen tan'
so i got back early(: shit fuck man, my sling bag he bought for me split =/ the sling there;
wtf lor. don't know can make back mah. hais , is this a signal that we have no chance of
getting this relationship back? out of a sudden you know, its like
i just put it on me, and suddenly drop down. hais
i really misses him so mucchh, if next time i got chance to see him once again
i'll kiss his forehead. . rily miss him to HELL !
yueting, said i got depression prblem. lol , mayb bahh ~ really miss him alot alot
and always thinking about things of him- haa, i won't overstress myself. as im still finding
work now. . hais ~ 'pock' liao lei. need to work liao, if i can get free money so song.
but money must earn one mah, where got so good things giving me money =/
wishing that i was a rich girl ((:
took at my own huse, stressing ovr him.
in the bus on the way home- closing my eyes
dont wish to think so muccchhhh !
took at aunty huse(:
hope to tk pictures with him again.
its me(: this is edited-
this picture is aftr me nd yuueeettinnngg
go bugis and return to yishun go KBOX ! sing
until we song man. reached his house ard 12++am
like this and took before i go bath(:
was when me and him still in a relationship ~
still have somemore pictures, showyou(:
if im not wrong this picture is also , during that day(:
with yuueeettiiinngg ~
uploading to photobucket(:
just washed my clothing, so smelly =/ boring man.
glad to hear from yueting that , nic ytd sleeping did
hold on to my booster(: small one, i put it in his huse.
because my mum wanna throw it away, saying that its smelly.
but i dont want @.@ got his smell (: so nice ~
but i cannot put it at home , mummy says it make the whole room
got smell :x than i brought it to aunty huse(:
she help me wash my blanket(: i gave my mickymouse head ; blanket ; small booster ;
heartheart((: all to him ! (:
my mummy just come back ; saying havent bath ah ! haha ,
im blogging mah, than also just wash my clothing.
so now having dinner (:
love my family(:
this one during SINGING (:
this one is at northpoint toilet((:
lols. nice post
can you see her eye ? big sunglasses(:
funnyfaces(:
that day was sooooo funn(:
and this one(:
im missing him badly .. without him hais . can't imagine whether i can b independent anot . hais im loving you always-
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[20 Sep 2007|03:51am] |
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hmms, today about 2+ am i go to nic's huse.
talk cock with aunty, awhile. and sing afew songs,
aftr that yueting nd nat g out liao. cause today is YUETING'S birthday ! ((:
than i go use their computer , and make some pictures effect.(:
this one is a sketch of, the sitches i made
for him(:
想你*
this couplemicky(: sweets ;
kissesforyou*
ihopethere'sonemoretimeicankissyou
gee~its a puzzle ownmade(:
he made for me(: ilovesyou-
nd also upload some of my own pictures(:
at 19 sep`07 8.38pm i msged him*
asking him to come back; im rily gg insane sooonnn
very xinku, you know what he said to me ?
he replied : 'i really dont want pls la. dont fan me thanks'
you know when the point i read this msg, my heart was
aching so much. hais, all is the past liao.
since he let go of me , he got a determination that
he wants to let go of me, no matter how hard. how suffering it is.
why we humans have feelings??
i just hope there's no feelings at all.. hais.
after all i'll try my best to go away from him bah, since he alr said that
we are very young. there's still a big long way to go.
if we are rily fated together we will come back together..
if not just b friends bah.. i know now i keep gg his huse also no use. i just hope
i won't b feeling anymore pain. its very suffering, very. .
i will wait ; but for the time being i cannot depend on my parents
i have to work as well to feed myself, no matter how i keep myself busy i will always
think of you. because you are my only one. .
and you told me to learn to b independent, i will. .
as times goes by you are not by my side, i cannot lean on you anymore. .
i will learn to b independent, but in the past i've been clinging on you.
depend on you, nvr let anyone bully me. pamper me,
what i wants you give me. now aftr we wrk, maybe is because
we don't have much times for each other thats why ure
feelings fade, if not is you thinks that im irritating.. but its alright.
since now i've already left you, maybe you'll feel more comfy,
more freedom. no ones to cares about you, but in another side
thanks alot . for all this things, you give me a great time.
no one treated me soo good like you do, i'll learn to treasure from the past.
and the most important things i want to let you know is , i'll always b waiting for you.
its suffering. but what else can i do? there's nothing i can do.
this is ure decision. .
fated means fated ; if we're not fated how we force is also no use.
maybe sometimes i'll b thinking stupids things, and think about you.
but its alright, this is a normal thing. along the way i will learn.
and you've said:' bee, you at home i can pamper you, but when you're outside
working, no one will pamper you. you must b independent.'
i know, and i'll learn . really very thanks*
060206* in my heart has nvr end- (:
i'll b waiting for you. to return
one day(:
smo0acks*
i shall b independent.
a smile for you when you
sees me(:
转角遇到爱..
gg town(: findjobs.
passtimework(:
thecrownyouboughtforme(:
i'vealwaystakeitwithme.
thanks alot, for ure hearts. you folded, with ure heart(:
and the 'xiang si dou' lol. gee~ sweets of you to
do it to me(: rmbr we went to escape?
with chaoren, jack, aihui ?
lols. you all tk a rid on the 'hai dao chuan' for so many times.
the first rid i took, my heart was pumping out(:
you still got the guts to play it again nd again,
and you went to tk the lil boat with jack, slides down from a very high metre.
hahaa, you still stand up:x ltr buang than you know :D
aftr escape, we went to fisherman village.
looking for the rent bicycle place, OMG.
find until 'bin chei chei' haa.
cross here cross there, but it was fun(:
aftr that we rent the bicycle alr, went to the webby things and climb. lol
i dont dare to climb soooo scary(:
i waited downstairs. ahhaa ~
aftr that late le, went to return their bicycle. and walk to pair siris, and took 39 back
to yishun(: that was a fun day, but i alr told you, you tk me
g escape is just a waste of ure money, because i dont likes to play=/
so scarryyy.
aftr that about 2 or 3 plus at midnight, yueting call me
she said she got no key to go aunty house, she nvr tk along.
alamak~(: and she tk cab home, but she doesnt have anything at her
own house. makeup-remover dont have, kotex dont have, no panty.
alamak~ so she took cab to my house there i give her aunty keys(:
aftr that at my block downstairs talk cock awhile, i told her that
i wanna see nico. i really misses him alot ,for this few days.
sooo i took cab with her to aunty house ! and he was at home ! !
im so glad(: and i saw him sleeping soundly(:
very glad. and she accompany me go tk cab
wtf , the bigROAD was like not even a single car @.@
aftr that we saw a cab ! i got up the cab and came home(: $5
wth, midnight charge sooo expensive.
than now blogging what happens today((:
today was busy looking for my hp themes and even
downloading songs to my phone(:
those song ' zhi de liu nian de'
nice song~ (:
so now blogging so latesss @.@
nw already 4.25am- lols. latelate
but im still not tired, thinking of finding more themes(:
yueettiinggg, don't need say thanks lah, ' ju shou zhi lao'
plus i also want to see nico mah(: not a need to say soooo
many times thanks okay(=
soooo, gonna off sooonn ! just wanna say
really really very hapy ! i saw him(: SLEEPING !
wooh0oo ~~~
ahhaa, alright shall end here. goodnights ~
hope tomorrow will b better((:
sueann misses YOU ! (:
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this is me(: just cut a hair, at jurong with him
asking me to cut the tweetybird shorter. and become like this @.@
but i've nvr regret, cutting it(: as long as, he's happy with my hairstyle.
imglad((:
before i ate the teddysweets(: i made his name.
during moon festival((:
iloveyou-
same, during moon festival outside his house(:
dardar , planning for this year moooonnn festival
where i should go ? hmm, im thinking of gg to his house; make candles.
making 'iloveyou' i hope he will appreciate and celebrate with me
but not asking me to go.. really don't wish to hear that..
its on 26sep`2007 left 8 more days to moon festival. .
i've just wakeup at about 11 plus, got up. and msged him,
i putted $60 on a box, i scare he no money eat.
he asked me me to take back. i told him i won't take back, incase there's
any urgent use(: im not stubborn i just want him to live happily,
got money to give him use. that day i gave him 90cents
to take bus, but he nvr tk it. i msged him and asked him,
he nvr replys. aunty told me he came back at 5+++
boy, you need some sleep. you are not iron body la.
today yueting gg out liao haha(: ltr abit late than i go aunty house(:
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oh ya and yueting(: happy birthday to you,
today is 19sep`2007 ure a 17 years old girl liao(:
hope ure wishes come true(:
waitingforHIM*):
ourlovelybed* but now its all gone.
everything is broke into pieces. . 
when we're not wrking that period.
we folded,hearts& stars together as well(: 
this sitches is i made for him, before we brokeup.
imisshim. 
this was the last picture i took with him,
and we've nvr took picture anymore. .
just wanna kiss you once more,
with all my hearts..
i trust you will all my wills,
sleepingsoundly(: 
i sew for him, during the period when i was lock
in my house, mum doesn't let me go out.
and he bought hamster to me too ! that period really sorry,
'xin ku ni le' ! and miaomiao was at my house
accompany me everyday(:
while talking with him on the phone during midnight,
haha, he fall aslp and i listen to his sleeping sound(:
though the days was hard to pass, but i have a go0d boyfriend.
that im happy with(: everyday, coming to my house. brought me
food to eat early in the moring at 6am plus so early(:
he urge to see me soon haha, still remember 1 time
he brought me roti prata , and i took from my house plates.
i took it outside of my house at the staircase we 2 sitting there eat (: haa.
he cycle to buy it(: everyday cycle come my house and find me
haha. misses it((:
boy, im waiting for you to b back.
girl misses you alot ' can you feel it ??
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[19 Sep 2007|01:52am] |
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i bought on 17sep`2007. at minitoon- own fixed coin box(:
$14.95 wtf, expensive right? but i like it very much so i bought it(:
now im saving coins(:
im missing him now): first day blogging,
actually was downloading adobe.
but my computer system not enough ram by a few mb -.-''
this was he bought me during,
on 2006(: he bought me at northpoint. quite expensive,
if i nvr remember wrongly. but he pampers me(: plus that time we're not wrking,
he afford to bought me this cute lil couples(:
and i went with aunty to bugis, looking for her 'shoulderbag'
can't find but atless she bought 1,
that she found liking it. and on the way there in the bus
i saw this cute lil babby(: sitting infront of me
when his grandma. he was so cute, that he was smiling tome(:
i felt comfy, because his smile rily made me happy =)
he putted his hand on the centre of the 2 chairs, and
got stuck ! he was crying, aunty helped him to pull out
his hand slowly(: not long he got off ler, at bugis there. walking to
'si ma lu' temple. with his grandma and grandpa.
going gaigai liao, so happy ! (x
baby oh; what are you looking at ? 
'i want my baobao !' dont snatched from me >< 
tired liao(: gns slp, was yawning.
how cute was that((: 
keep looking behind, laughs* 
looking at aunty, sitting beside me(= 
his hair is nice uh? (: cute lil baby , abt
1year old plus((x
my days just pass like this, nothing much to do.
soon gonna find a wrk ; if not i no money liao.
aunty told me that he still cares alot about me,
asking her mum whether iszit very bad of him to,
leave me alone just like this? his mum told him
:"what do you think?" he say yes, feel very upset.
asking about me , whether i've found a new job alr?
nah, this is not what you have to worry, just put in ure
heart to work can liao, my things i will take care of it.
but for YOU ? ure work is important, ure mother nvr gives you any money liao
you have to know how to save. alright? im here wishing you all the best in ure wrk(:
supports you alot* dont get ureself fucking stress alright? this is not i wanna see,
i wanna see is a really very healthy nico that i've ever know(:
see you. though my time is waiting for you to come back; but this is not a rush.
i know you need times to think of..
i dont wish to have any freedom,
i rather you pangseh me at home, than having a need to breakup with me.
i dont wish to hear this. .heart is bleeding..<3s
sueann is waiting for you to comes back;
to her the relationship has nvr ends...
<3s<3s
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